Another Day

I am restless
my apathy transforming into frustrations
Partly due to insomnia
With a good measure of neurosis

I choose this perspective
To remain in control
There's more potential for productivity
less anxiety and self-pity

So I choose
I choose to breath in and
I breath out
I move my body and feel it

I do some things some therapist taught me to do
Nothing feels good enough - right
Until I make it my own
I try real hard; maybe that's my problem

Emotions are tricky
I wrestle with why I can't reconcile with myself
My expectations are too demanding
I want to believe in my inherent value

I am finding more pain than I want
I am feeling more sadness that I want
I am loving deeper than I knew I could
I am hating harder than I ever hated

I've abandoned all I've ever known
I'm right here, right now
You are mine for this moment
What will the sunrise bring?

More of you, less of you
More or less of us
One thing I know
We will be just fine.

And so we are. Just fine.