Lost

So many whys clutter my mind
I can't escape myself
My meandering thoughts linger
On your left-behind scent

The specifics are a well-kept secret
In my breasts, belly
My roots have been altered
It's that deep.

I will never forget it
I have a lifetime of regrets
That I deny
I refuse to discontinue as the truth is debilitating

Knowing smiles all around, mock me
Even the moon is chasing me down
There is nowhere to hide
My love flames still roar for you

They are being stoked
Deep in my belly
I am so, so crazy
For you.

Hold onto me like I've held onto you
In my mind, my memory is poor
And I still can see us
Laying next to each other in bed

Covered in you
In your element, in mine as well
We lay and I watch you
You and your tranquilizing inhale and exhale

We spend this time together so I can write about you later
I ruminate on how I bit your bottom lip
Drew one insignificant drop of blood
Savoring your metallic taste

I want more of you
Hear me now
Take me to bed tonight
Don't just tuck me in and say goodbye